Dear Reader,

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him. James 1:5(ESV)

I don’t like advice. I will not ask for help in hell or high water. I will accept help if you volunteer it but it’s incredibly difficult to ask.  I heard a story about a team building exercise where people were  blind folded but had to go through a maze and had to get to the end. That was the premise of the game. However, the maze had no end. The whole point was to raise your hand if you needed help and the truth would be revealed. I’m stubborn. I know for sure I’d be the teammate for was there for hours trying and trying to get it right on my own.

I thought that doing things on my own was a good thing. It’s the American Dream or something. I found out that I was sorely mistaken.  This Sunday, Pastor Josh likened not asking for instruction in life to trying to build an Ikea table without reading the manual.  Why wouldn’t you want to consult the one who made the table? Why wouldn’t you ask the one who made you? or someone who has been there? That sounds so simple. However, it goes against the grain. I have no desire to ask someone for help because that is an admission that I don’t know what I’m doing. The bible doesn’t say if you are in doubt, ask Google. However, that is my go-to for every problem.

I’m sure you guys are smarter than I am and have mentors and ask God for help making decisions. I was a high school student who couldn’t even answer the question who is your role model or who would you want to talk to if you talked to anyone. I literally thought about it for two days when someone asked me and came up empty. I don’t know if I just had impossible standards or I truly believed I wasn’t capable of anything and that dreaming or looking to a goal was a waste of time. Today I know better on  both accounts.